An English Honeymoon: Day VIII

The eighth day of our visit to England was set for a trip to the University of Oxford. The University of Oxford is in a town called Oxford in England. During our visit, we learned about the age-old tension between the people who take residence there mostly outside and around the campus (many of whom have lived there for many years) and the college campus with its students, professors, businesses, and other faculty. For the most part though, it seems they've made it work. I wonder what kinds of problems they had... I recall one being that of students trespassing on other people's property whilst under the influence. 

When we stepped off the train and into the town of Oxford, we were not on the campus immediately. Residential homes, numerous churches, and other businesses led us into the campus. After a few blocks, we began to see university town. 

There was one tree which was latched onto a building by some type of contraption, as if the owners of the residence put the tree on a leash, commanding it to stay close, not stray too far or else it would block the path. You must grow with us, not away! The tree seems to have had no other choice but didn't seem to be complaining either, admitting perhaps that this position it was forced into was probably for the best. An odd but special formation, unlike anything else.

Slowly, slowly, we began to walk into the University of Oxford campus. It was thrilling. I was so in awe of the students on their bikes, carrying their bags or wearing backpacks, in deep thought or else engaged in lively conversations with one another. I longed to be a university student in that moment. There's a romance to the austerity of academia, its dedication to thought, and of course its discipline. 

The university, aware of its tourists, had some guards in front of its many locked and gated courtyards. But we could see through, and we imagined C.S. Lewis and Tolkien and Oscar Wilde, and all those other boys and men, working hard at things that maybe seemed to foolish to some (commonplace for many of those in the humanities). I'm thinking now... I cannot name one woman who attended Oxford. Must look into that... I'm sure there's one I'm familiar with. 

We walked and looked and peered and let ourselves be astounded by age and history, trying to picture this place other times rather than the one we were in, enthralled by the fact that it was still standing right where we stood - a now familiar feeling since we stepped onto British land. And we learned, later, from the librarian who gave us a splendid tour of the Bodleian Library, that Oxford had a history of struggle. In competition with Cambridge University, Oxford wanted to be just as good of a university. It was harder for Oxford primarily for the fact that they had less money. Many years were spent where the boys and men who schooled there didn't have warmth in winter, and sat for hours in a room that looked like the ribs of a gothic whale, studiously attempting, and many succeeding, learning Latin. The carvings within the walls, the only thing other than the mostly dreary outdoors they could daydream into, were covered in hidden symbolic messages from saints, donors (as in those who gave money to the university), religious figures, and spiritual iconography... there were many rooms I dared not photograph. We weren't told not to, but out of respect for the speaking librarian, I didn't. But we were able to see rooms where professors and staff held important meetings - in the room I'm remembering there was a sun clock, which was how they were supposed to tell the time without the clocks we have now, but the clock was dysfunctional for one reason or another, something to do with geometry of the sun coming in through the window and being blocked by an object, maybe a statue. And another room in which students were judged for some misdemeanor... complete with a place for a judge or head professor to sit... we ourselves were able to sit in that room and I filled up with awe realizing I was sitting and walking within a very small space once inhabited by Oscar Wilde himself. 

We were able to see one of the oldest parts of the library, a creaking, dark, damp, and dusty space filled with streams of sunlight and books made and bound by leather, some behind glass, a corridor filled with the lamplight of a dozen students hard at work, lost in thought, concentration so pure that it suffused the enclosures with a reverie granted by the all the animas of knowledge. 

When we exited, we hung out in the courtyard for a little while, considering it all. 

We entered a small abbey to eat. It was a cove-like space, thick with the smell of soups, sandwiches, teas, and coffees, tinkling with the sounds of people sharing a spirit of community tied to contemplation and thought, dedicated to the intellectual. At least... through my rose-coloured glasses. And why not remember it that way? 

On the way back to the train (back to Kensington Square) I thought  - and still am thinking - of passages. Our passing through time, our human years moving to generations and onto centuries. Zeitgeist, the spirit of ages, changing and evolving with culture and history. Some places remain the same in their structure, such as the University of Oxford, a grand testament of to the hub of life-centered learning and growth. We were grateful to see it. 

How does our Zeitgeist fair now? I believe it is in ill, ill condition. I comprehend nothing but depth from those intellectuals from the periods before us. However, I'm sad to say that now, in our current moment, I only feel something hollow and shallow in intellectual endeavor, particularly here in America, and perhaps this is because our foundations are completely wrong; the starting motivations of our aims and ideals have been based off of selfish and greedy motivations, motivations which have everything to do with the protection of egos, egos not worth saving especially if they run of the ruination of those less than. 

In a strange turn, I'm very, very glad to say, I am so much relieved that I have not pursued higher education just yet, if ever. My motivations for previous degrees have been utterly perfect (for me) and have led me to a profession which I feel is deeply rooted in vocational practice. I will not move ahead in pursuing academic work if I am without that underlying pursuit of a craft. I have that fulfilled through my daily work, so I've no need to make creative attempts towards that end for the time being.

...oh, but let me enroll into Oxford for free! And let me study philosophy! Oh what a dream. Oh what a life! I would! I would. 

I don't know how, but for whatever reason we were not tired after this long day carousing around the university. When we got back to Kensington, the cutest street cat we had been seeing around the neighborhood popped up again, and this time the cat stuck around long enough for me to take some pictures. Seeing this kitty made me miss my own baby cat Grigio so, so much. I wanted to take this one with me, this one with the mottled black splotches of a cow, an almost black cat with a puffy tabby face, badly needing a bath. 

Have I mentioned this in any of my posts yet? That, at least when we went, there were so many "Nando's" restaurants all over London? We have them in the U.S. too, and we saw another one, so we went there that night, probably discussing something about British colonialism in Africa and not getting very far. We ate and went back to our humble hotel room. I caught up on Brexit (a big thing last May) as much as I could, took a look at my purchases before gently packing them up, then went to sleep dreaming of flowers. 

- F